When I pulled out a little angel from the box, Susan got all excited. “You put the date on this one and it’s my birth date! I was just 6 months old that Christmas!” Even though the little angel had lost its shine and its left wing was broken, there was just one place for it - the place of honor at the top of the tree.
Angels at the Savior’s birth
Woke with music all the earth,
Shepherds in the eastern sky
Saw a pale star passing by,
Guiding them at the break of day
Where the babe in meekness lay,
Born the gracious news to tell,
God with us, Immanuel” ( Christian Science Hymnal p. 11)
After Susan went home, I thought further about the events leading up to her arrival as a baby.
Shortly before we were expecting her, we had lost a baby at birth. If I ever needed angels and music and stars and the gracious news of “God with us”, I needed it then. But at first I just felt sad, puzzled, without any sense of God with me.
In fact, for a very long time – even before the loss - I had been carrying this question in my heart: “What is God?” But in my grief, I felt humbled, meek and ready to hear the answer.
I searched and I thought and I pondered and I learned about the Christ as God making himself known – as Love perpetually reflected in love, as Life forever reflecting life, of Soul that never loses track of one of its little ones. In grief, God’s love broke through, softening my heart to receive the good news of Love’s all-presence.
Shortly, I was expecting another baby. Her Dad was in the army so he missed the event. Still, during Susan’s delivery, I felt calm and happy and smiled the entire time because I knew God was with us both.
My husband finally got a one-day leave and we took our sweet baby home together. Then, he had to leave again. My mother, also with us at first - when she was satisfied I was settled in - went home to my dad. Our two little boys were being cared for by a friend. So, I was alone with this precious bundle.
But, I wasn’t sad. I wasn’t lonely. I wasn’t fearful. I knew now that God is All, that God is with us, and that God would always be with me and this new little one.
Merry Christmas, dear blog readers. May the light of Christ and the songs of angels encourage and bless you with this message of hope and faith: God is All. God is with us. God is with you, now and always.